August 2010
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TMI Tuesday
I hate this feeling of being the one to end our relationship. You will be seen as the victim. Me; guilty. No matter how you look at it, it was my choice entirely which makes me the real monster. You will have people there to help you and hold your hand and tell you it’s ok and be there to talk to you. I, on the other hand, only have people saying that I did the right thing. I’m not...
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Alone.
It’s very strange to wake up knowing that I am not with my girlfriend. The lack of texts is a reminder of this.
Even when I got dressed this morning I put on my Tegan and Sara shirt from the mall two days ago, the first thing that popped into my mind was, “She owes me $14.”. Well, wow. Fuck that. How selfish of me. It’s only $14. It’s only a shirt. It’s only...
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I took a year and a half and shattered it into a hundred fragments of moments and memories.
I took a year and a half and ground it into grains of sand to be swept into the salty sea and be eaten by the mollusks.
I took a year and a half and watched as a flame engulfed the edges and smoldered the center.
I took a year and a half and broke it’s ankles, snapped it’s shins; let it feel...
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GAH!
Tegan and Sara shirts?! In my Hot Topic?!
Is this real life?!?
Well, of course it is; I bought two! (one for myself, and one for my girlfriend).
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smallbike-deactivated20110315-d asked: Hey, hey, hey, I am messaging to say that kylabear now known as mahungrybear and I are sorry we weren't able to be over to do things and stuff today, but we really wanted to, but we couldn't, and I wanted to call you earlier to tell you so, but I do not have your number and had no luck getting it. But that is what happened and I am sorry if you have thought any less of us for it.
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Neck Braces Are Sexy
My best friend that lives a long long way across the street recently got into a car accident. She told me today about it and I freaked out thinking that it had just happened right before she texted me. Nah, wasn’t today. But she gets to wear this funny neck brace because of the whip lash so she sent me a picture.
I would have posted the picture but, sadly, it’s sort of embarrassing...
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Procrastination
My friend’s birthday was on the 23rd, her party was yesterday, and I’m getting her gift for her in a few minutes. Guess who’s a bit behind? It’s better than being months late. I’m that bad.
Well, besides that, I’ve got fencing tonight at 8ish so that should be fun. Get to hang out with my best bud ever!! (aka my coach). My dream last night pertained to fencing,...
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QUINCEST!?
z0mgcake: i mean, i've always been into the idea of doing all like 'normal couple stuff' and i dunno you were never really into that.
afraidofme: huh?
z0mgcake: you didn't really show the 'generic' kinda affection i always envisioned in a relationship too much.
afraidofme: i still don't understand what i was doing wrong
z0mgcake: nothing! forget it.
afraidofme: no. explain. please. let me fix it.
z0mgcake: you often weren't 'aggressive/forward' with like 'cute' stuff. like i'm usually the one who suggests we sneak off, i usually snuggle into you, etc. idk maybe i'm overreacting.
afraidofme: i guess I'm not that affectionate. but i never really noticed that. I'm sorry. i do like being close with you. i was close today and it's not like i forced myself to lean on you, it was just natural and comfortable.
z0mgcake: you did today. i noticed it. i appreciate it.
afraidofme: so maybe i may not always be physically showing my feelings, but i do feel them. i've never been one to cuddle, even though I do enjoy those times with you.
z0mgcake: mmm i know. but i've always kinda hoped you'd get into that kinda stuff.
afraidofme: i suppose that's just me. sorta like sara. she likes the bed to herself.
z0mgcake: and i'm like tegan. wanting to spoon all day.
afriadofme: awww. Oh god. Metaphorical incest.
z0mgcake: i was thinking the same thing.
afraidofme: ewwww dear god, what have we done?
aperioursa asked: oh hey, i think thursday would be a go, i just need to confirm with jackie =)
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True Blood Wut?
I really don’t want to believe that Sookie is an alien, yet the uncanny resemblance can’t be denied.
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Once you click, there is only one thing you can do… and that’s ask an awesome question!
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TMI Tuesday!?
Why haven’t I done this yet? I’m such a douchebag. Keeping your vaginas clean… All the time…
ANYWAY!
My bit of information that may be too much is that I act out and play roles or characters when I am by myself. I really do talk to myself too much, but then I’ll turn it into an interview or an episode of “Cribs” or into a movie where someone is trying to...
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Album of the Something
“Merriweather Post Pavilion”
Animal Collective
I’m very satisfied with this purchase.
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It’s funny how conversations outside of half-sleep dreaming filter in selectively.
When I say this, I mean that my dream included the voice of one person involved in a conversation around me. Was strange.
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I'm Next In Line For A Shaved Head
According to my Uncle, fabulous fashion fanatic, I need to start modeling, like, now and I need to shave my head to a crew cut. Seems reasonable. He made me walk in platform heels, followed by standing awkwardly as he snapped away with his i-Phone. I personally didn’t find my face to look all too appealing with under eye bags and all that jazz. But, he thinks I can do it so why the hell...
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so i went to the mall or the first time yesterday,...
kylabear:
Yesterday I did the same thing at the Lego store. I made Tegan and Sara and another random person and remembered that I saw the post above. So these are the ones that I made:
I’m pretty sure our Sara outfits are the same. I’m also pretty sure that the shirt I picked for Tegan is meant for a pirate. Oh well. But my logic behind the face I picked for Tegan was that it...
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I finally was able to watch “Hey Arnold The Movie” and now I’m sitting watching “Rocko’s Modern Life” while my friend’s sleep. I’m not all that tired any more. Oh well.
I should maybe sleep. It’s 4:00 am.
aperioursa asked: oh thats quite alright, we can reschedule =) any particular day you would be able to come out and play?
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I may just be tumblr-dumb but I can’t manage to find a way to respond to a reply on my last post.
So, to Kylabear and anyone else wondering, my brother is going to St. Leo University in Florida. It’s a bit of a hike from home.
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Bye Brother
It’s hard to have to say good bye to your only sibling going off to college. I’ll be the only one left with the parents and I’ll be the only kid left in the house. His room will be quiet. The house will be quiet. No constant music whether he is making chimichangas in the kitchen or showering or just inhabiting his room. No more annoying surprise entrances into my room, my own...
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darjeelingsuitcases asked: heey what club do you fence at?
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ACT and MGMT
That pretty much will sum up my day. This morning was the ACT half of my day and, hopefully soon, the second half of my day will begin.
I can’t say I was excited for ACT work. It really sucks and is boring and drab and all those things. But, hey; I want to go to college, eh? Need to do semi ok at my ACT shit. So I worked on tackling (they use this word all the time when talking about...
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I ate some pizza while walking to church.
It was good. And then they sang “Sing of Mary, Pure and Lowly”. I kind of liked the way it was sung at my church with the single person singing and my cousin playing organ.
Oh. And mom was crying because I guess she’s just been really stressed about my brother’s imminent college experience.
aperioursa asked: "ask me anything"... you should never give me that idea... or sterabies that idea... because it has consequences... matter of fact we have discussed it and we would like a tumblr meet up with you. wanna come go get grubs? g`DAY!
Anonymous asked: Not really a question, but I read one of your posts and was reminded of this quote.
"I think as women who are dating women - not that I've only experienced that with women, I think that when I was dating men I felt the same way - it's difficult. You get to a point where you are feeling very comfortable and familiar with your situation and your partner and the day...
"I think as women who are dating women - not that I've only experienced that with women, I think that when I was dating men I felt the same way - it's difficult. You get to a point where you are feeling very comfortable and familiar with your situation and your partner and the day...
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I’ve been lazily sitting around after sleeping in today and suddenly I hear a familiar voice call my name. I’m surprised to hear it since the person whom the voice comes from should be in the next state over and not in my house. Of course I go down stairs to investigate and there is my cousin Elena standing there is a white striped shirt with a black and white rose and a pair of denim...
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Nickel and Dimed
I’m only on page 19 and she has already used the phrase “Fuck this shit” and mentioned “two dirt-smudged lesbians”.
I may like this book. (by Barbara Ehrenreich)
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It's Times Like These Where I'm Not Sure What To...
afraidofme: How are you?
z0mgcake: Packing. Which is making me cry.
She’s been away at a camp for three weeks working hard, making friends, and having, as she has told me, “the best time of her life”. I think she said something along those lines. Besides that, there is no question as to why she would be upset to have to pack her bag and come home. Of course, I have mixed...
